One of the things I really love about my fiancé, Jim, is that
he’s patient. Not “grow-a-beard” patient, because I won’t let him grow a beard,
but “put-up-with-my-crap” patient. Here’s some of the stuff that I’d probably
hate about me if I had to date me.
1) I bitch a lot.
OMG, do I ever bitch a lot. I’m a bitch. Past boyfriends and
girlfriends have lodged a lot of complaints about me, my personality, my
appearance, and my general approach to life. In their estimation, I’ve been:
- Too skinny
- Too fat
- Too old (I was twenty-eight when I was told this. I replied, “How the f&ck old do you think twenty-eight is, motherf*cker?”)
- Too “high maintenance,” whatever that means
- Too dowdy
- Too slutty
- Not slutty enough
- Too fussy about my appearance
- Too lazy
- Too ambitious
- Too hairy
- Not hairy enough
That’s just a small sampling of complaints that have been
lodged against me by former lovers, many of whom have also bitched vociferously
about my being a bitch without a trace of irony. It used to hurt my feelings
when someone I was dating called me a bitch, but now I have come to accept that
I am a bitch. Don’t get me wrong – I’m still not okay with being called a
bitch. Name-calling isn’t cool.
But I am a bitch. Call me a bitch? I’ll bitch about that.
Leave some trash lying around? I’ll bitch about that. Leave dishes piled in the
sink? I’ll bitch about that. Let my cats out by accident? You better believe I’ll
bitch about that. Let me get hungry? OH SHIT YOU BETTER RUN.
2) I hate everyone.
I was going to put “I’m on my phone ALL. THE. TIME.” in this
spot, because I am, but then I thought about it and realized that wouldn’t
bother me at all. I like it when people are on their phones all the time, because
then I don’t have to talk to them. I like people just fine, as long as they
leave me alone.
But they never do.
3) I leave cupboard doors open.
I go into the kitchen, open up a bunch of cupboard doors,
and then leave them open. The next time I walk through the kitchen, I close
them again. If I was dating me and I did that I’d definitely bitch about it.
4) I always say I’m going to fix things, but then I don’t do it for like six months.
My future-father-in-law likes me because he thinks I like to
fix things. I wouldn’t say I like it,
but whenever something breaks it always falls to me to fix it because I’m the
one with the confidence to f*ck it up. But I don’t enjoy it, which is why I
always put it off. I have a stack of a flooring material in my garage that I’ve
been saying I’ve been going to install for over three years. Once Jim thought
he broke the vacuum cleaner, and I didn’t even look at it for two months, which
is a shame because it just needed emptied. I'm impatient. If I were dating me, I’d definitely
bitch about this pattern of behavior.
5) I’m cheap, apparently.
Jim recently called me “very thrifty,” which was news to me.
I mean, I never considered myself cheap, but I’m probably biased because I
obviously know about all the money I waste on frivolous things like meat and
another jacket, even though I already have one. So yeah, I guess I’m cheap,
which is funny because cheapness is one of my top deal breakers in a relationship.
I would definitely dump me for being cheap.
